OnTheWay

2017 is my definitely golden year.

I must say I live my quarter life with wonderful madness instead of hateful crisis.

Have I told you that I love my 21st SO MUCH and the years followed? The curve went downhill from there but still, those years were GOLD. When 2017 came, which I was a newbie being 25, I was so hopeful.

Old and new to 2017 at London Bridge with the grandeur fireworks party in the sky combined with London's remarkable skyline, did I eligible for being so hopeless afterwards? No. I just didn't and shouldn't.

Then come the phrase,

"be careful of what you've wished for"

for me, it's more like

"Be more careful of what you haven't wished for. Embrace it all."

As usual, I was just being YOLO with my life.

At professional work, it's been a rollercoaster ride. I love my work and office so much for its unicorn startup environment, youthful, dynamic, briliant people, cool spaces, dope events, and all the perks of being GO-TROOPS. IMO, 2017 was the best year in GO-JEK as we exceled rapidly in parallel to our huge move to the new cool office in Pasaraya. Thus, being a part of its marketing team and GO-LIFE family was truly a crazy, fun ride.

I loved my bosses, teams, colleagues, and best friends I made along the way. Yet, at some points I felt lost in the middle. I felt numb. Dramas and words became invisible, 'cause at that point I just felt nothing and didn't give a f*ck anymore. I gave too much f*ck for too long, I felt unhappy and exhausted.

I got sick whenever I reached my table every morning. I remember I was keen to come early to just take a moment for myself. It was less people and quieter, easier for me to make up my mind and prepare each day's riots.

GO-CAFE was one of my favorite morning oasis, for its delish hearty foods for breakfast. And of course, GO-GYM, my serotonin gainer when I got the drive to jumpstart my day (oh now I miss it so much). Hence, dearest friends' frequent 'sebat time' throughout the day would be my most awaited oasis. :))

It was July 2017, exactly two years of being a GO-TROOP, and I felt like, 'this is it'. Actually, I'd thought about this since end of 2016. With some thinkings and significant people's considerations, I held my will and got back to work. Yet in few months, things were so different. So did I. Just so you know, 3 months in GO-JEK truly felt like a year. They moved and changed so fast, for its exponential growth was unevitable.

By the time I resigned in December, I was a part of LOKET and GO-TIX. So little yet remarkable time to work with all great people in there --the smartest yet humblest leaders I've ever known. It's my loss to leave them prematurely. Couldn't wait to meet them somewhere at the top, someday.

In love, I made peace with myself and my SO.

I did a lot of stepbacks to disconnect and think. Similar to my professional life, somehow I was lost in the middle. I lost myself. It's been me, myself, and I --who make the fusses all this time.

I was so busy doing shits I hardly listen anymore. Therefore, I tried to listen to what I really need, want, afraid of, and be thankful for. Honestly, if it's not Roland as my SO, I might not make it to where I was. He give me all I need and I couldn't ask for a better partner. I took me a lot of battleships to realize all of this. Thankfully, I was not too late :)

In travelbug, my body didn't event bother to fight the virus at all.

I FLEW ALL THE WAY TO LA, TO ATTEND COACHELLA. This one was beyond surreal. I didn't see this coming at all. I loved surprises and this one was RAD, if not the best one.

I became a Project Leader at annual Indonesia's Tourism Ministry project.

I witnessed the most beautiful blooms in my life: Japanese Cherry Blossom

I went back to Raja Ampat, explored the other part of this paradise: Misool!! Too beautiful.

I went to places. Experienced things. Met new people. Created memories.

Of course there were storms and stumbles, yet I didn't regret any of them at all.

Traveling will always be my kryptonite.

That's all I can share of my golden 2017.

Rocky roads and easy summer sea. Sour and sweet. Sun and moon. Mistakes and accomplishments. Yin and yang. The worst and the best. They were there, filled my days and nights, molding a better version of Jovita.

As I believe, we shall move to a bright clear blue sky no matter how hard the black clouds of storm try to holds us. Change is unevitable. Accordingly, a change for good is mandatory for our own good.

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