OnTheWay: Januari 2018

2017 is my definitely golden year.

I must say I live my quarter life with wonderful madness instead of hateful crisis.

Have I told you that I love my 21st SO MUCH and the years followed? The curve went downhill from there but still, those years were GOLD. When 2017 came, which I was a newbie being 25, I was so hopeful.

Old and new to 2017 at London Bridge with the grandeur fireworks party in the sky combined with London's remarkable skyline, did I eligible for being so hopeless afterwards? No. I just didn't and shouldn't.

Then come the phrase,

"be careful of what you've wished for"

for me, it's more like

"Be more careful of what you haven't wished for. Embrace it all."

As usual, I was just being YOLO with my life.

At professional work, it's been a rollercoaster ride. I love my work and office so much for its unicorn startup environment, youthful, dynamic, briliant people, cool spaces, dope events, and all the perks of being GO-TROOPS. IMO, 2017 was the best year in GO-JEK as we exceled rapidly in parallel to our huge move to the new cool office in Pasaraya. Thus, being a part of its marketing team and GO-LIFE family was truly a crazy, fun ride.

I loved my bosses, teams, colleagues, and best friends I made along the way. Yet, at some points I felt lost in the middle. I felt numb. Dramas and words became invisible, 'cause at that point I just felt nothing and didn't give a f*ck anymore. I gave too much f*ck for too long, I felt unhappy and exhausted.

I got sick whenever I reached my table every morning. I remember I was keen to come early to just take a moment for myself. It was less people and quieter, easier for me to make up my mind and prepare each day's riots.

GO-CAFE was one of my favorite morning oasis, for its delish hearty foods for breakfast. And of course, GO-GYM, my serotonin gainer when I got the drive to jumpstart my day (oh now I miss it so much). Hence, dearest friends' frequent 'sebat time' throughout the day would be my most awaited oasis. :))

It was July 2017, exactly two years of being a GO-TROOP, and I felt like, 'this is it'. Actually, I'd thought about this since end of 2016. With some thinkings and significant people's considerations, I held my will and got back to work. Yet in few months, things were so different. So did I. Just so you know, 3 months in GO-JEK truly felt like a year. They moved and changed so fast, for its exponential growth was unevitable.

By the time I resigned in December, I was a part of LOKET and GO-TIX. So little yet remarkable time to work with all great people in there --the smartest yet humblest leaders I've ever known. It's my loss to leave them prematurely. Couldn't wait to meet them somewhere at the top, someday.

In love, I made peace with myself and my SO.

I did a lot of stepbacks to disconnect and think. Similar to my professional life, somehow I was lost in the middle. I lost myself. It's been me, myself, and I --who make the fusses all this time.

I was so busy doing shits I hardly listen anymore. Therefore, I tried to listen to what I really need, want, afraid of, and be thankful for. Honestly, if it's not Roland as my SO, I might not make it to where I was. He give me all I need and I couldn't ask for a better partner. I took me a lot of battleships to realize all of this. Thankfully, I was not too late :)

In travelbug, my body didn't event bother to fight the virus at all.

I FLEW ALL THE WAY TO LA, TO ATTEND COACHELLA. This one was beyond surreal. I didn't see this coming at all. I loved surprises and this one was RAD, if not the best one.

I became a Project Leader at annual Indonesia's Tourism Ministry project.

I witnessed the most beautiful blooms in my life: Japanese Cherry Blossom

I went back to Raja Ampat, explored the other part of this paradise: Misool!! Too beautiful.

I went to places. Experienced things. Met new people. Created memories.

Of course there were storms and stumbles, yet I didn't regret any of them at all.

Traveling will always be my kryptonite.

That's all I can share of my golden 2017.

Rocky roads and easy summer sea. Sour and sweet. Sun and moon. Mistakes and accomplishments. Yin and yang. The worst and the best. They were there, filled my days and nights, molding a better version of Jovita.

As I believe, we shall move to a bright clear blue sky no matter how hard the black clouds of storm try to holds us. Change is unevitable. Accordingly, a change for good is mandatory for our own good.

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Saya menangis.
Di doa bersama dalam rangka syukur tahun baru pagi tadi, saya tidak kuasa menahan air mata.
Lebay? Not at all. I felt truly showered by His blessings. Tuhan begitu baik kepada saya selama hidup ini.

Ya, saya orang yang sangat beruntung.

Saya masih punya paru-paru dan hidung untuk bernapas, mata yang baik untuk melihat, mulut untuk makan enak, kaki kuat untuk jalan-jalan.. saya masih bisa 'hidup', dengan melakukan hal-hal yang saya cintai. Dan bisa dibilang saya tidak pernah 'hidup susah'. Kedua orangtua saya sangat bertanggung jawab dan menyayangi anak-anaknya, dimana saya selalu hidup penuh kasih dan berkecukupan, lebih dari cukup malah saya merasanya. Saya sangat bersyukur punya papa mama yang luar biasa dan jadi panutan hidup saya.

Saat ini kami sekeluarga sedang berlibur akhir tahun di Australia. It's never a dull moment creating memories with them at new places. Selalu ada cerita seru, kocak, kesel, girang, wah ada aja deh pokoknya. Saya sebagai anak pertama dengan saudara yang umurnya jauh2, makin kesini makin hepi karena adik2 saya sekarang udah gede semua. Jadi serunya pas jalan-jalan bisa dibagi bersama karena interestnya udah lumayan mirip2 dibanding beberapa tahun lalu.

Ditambah saya masih tidak menyangka di tahun baru 2018 ini saya punya titel baru, 'tunangan' alias somebody's 'fiancee'. Geezuz. Iya sih saya dan dia sudah pacaran lama sekitar lima tahun lebih. Tetapi untuk akhirnya mencapai tahap ini, saya masih shaky shaky yaya dada alias deg2an gak karuan! However, I couldn't ask for any better companion and proposal. It's been so special and I'm very happy. So, thank you my fiancee :)

Semalam kami menyaksikan salah satu kembang api terindah yang ada di dunia. Bagi saya, itu adalah kembang api tahun baru terindah yang pernah saya saksikan seumur hidup saya. Di kawasan Darling Harbour Sydney, kami meresapi warna-warni indah di langit dari atas kapal yang tertambat di sana. Berpelukan dan mengucapkan 'happy new year' bersama orang-orang tersayang adalah satu dari banyak momen di hidup yang sangat berharga. Like 'Look at us, we survived another year. It's not that bad, you know. So hello new year! Keep being yourself and stay amazing like those colors in the sky'.
Surreal.

That's why I cried like a baby this morning. I just couldn't hold this pure wholeness and gratitude inside of me.

Terima kasih, 2017.
2018, let's rock and roll.

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January 1st, 2018.
11.01 AM - Oaks on Castlereigh Hotel Sydney

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OTWanderlust